NEW YORK. CALIFORNIA. & all the states between.
I’ve been spending the last eight months
Thinking all love ever does is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again
– Taylor Swift
“What? Don’t you love me?”
“I’m not sure anymore.”
To the nonbelievers, the impatient, and the jaded – I won’t ever tell you that you are wasting your time. There are just some heartbreaks that you never recover from.
Because what do you do – after 8 years of fighting for a love that you couldn’t let go – when you learn that it was for not? A love that killed your self confidence, deteriorated your understanding of trust, and nearly ripped your family apart? A love that taught you your most valuable lessons of self? A love that, when you finally set it free, was so eroded by infidelity, anger, and just plain stupidity – it was like sand falling through your fingers.
Growth is never easy. Take it from the oldest daughter of a family that vigilantly protects their own (read: permission to watch a PG-13 movie when I was 15 was my idea of an argument worth raising my voice for). But growing from a true failure? That’s a feat for the patient.
Patience. A virtue most foreign.
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If I may be candid, the last few Easters have become synonymous with my best friend, Indian food & our annual viewing of The Sound of Music.
That story is for another time.
Albeit not religious, I definitely find unspoken comfort in honoring a sense of faith and spirituality – so you’d think I’d be a little better about celebrating what Easter is all about. You know, in between quoting the Von Trapps and samosas.
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When it comes to sunrises and sunsets, I will always opt for the former. There is something truly incredible about watching a pitch black night sky dissolving into pinks, oranges, and life. In essence, Easter is like a sunrise, isn’t it?
And the best part is that you get the chance to let this light into your life every day. A chance to rise up & begin again.
“I think the universe pities me.
—My latest match is super cute…SO what are the odds he likes country too”
“HAHAHA happy Tuesday!
It started with beers, tacos & a 2AM goodnight. Chopsticks, grocery shopping & a bloody movie. Omelets. Mint tea & a chai latte in a cafe on a rainy afternoon. A concert and a kiss to end life as I knew it.
So much to celebrate this sunrise: light, life, and love.
“In His great mercy, He has given new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ.” (1 Peter 1:3)